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Post by noss on Jun 18, 2008 8:49:11 GMT -5
Noss sat on the beach, holding the charm she'd stolen from her mother, considering so many dark things. She was right, and it broke her. On one hand, she hadn't wasted two years of her life, but on the other she was heartbroken.
"You were right, of course, you have nothing to be upset about. You are not your backstabbing ex-girlfriend."
The voice in Noss' head rang out.
"I'm a little heartbroken, leave me alone."
Noss said, looking around for the speaker. She was a little surprised, the voice sounded like her own, but angrier, and somehow contorted.
The voice continued.
"It is only after disaster that we can be resurrected, Noss Takasei. Only when you lose everything are you free to do anything. Nothing is static. Everything is falling apart."
The voice laughed.
"And until you realize that you are the all-singing, all-dancing crap of the world, you're nothing. Until you know that, you are useless."
Noss, in frustration threw the charm into the sand.
"Throw anything you want, Nossy, but you need to realize..."
Suddenly, without seemingly controlling her own actions, Noss reached out and took the stolen charm into her hands again.
"It's time to evolve. Let the chips fall where they may."
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Post by soncascada on Jun 18, 2008 9:03:20 GMT -5
Syaoran, being the boy that he was, was very observant and very curious about most things. Although, he had a habit of being very discreet about such things. He had seen Noss come out in the open, mainly because he was a touch protective over Kayla, and wasn't sure about that Isaac boy. He had seen her reaction... and now he had followed her here.
And now she was talking to herself.
Lovely.
The white haired boy stepped out into view, his blue eyes searching over Noss' face, his face within its completely neutral pallor. He nodded at her, and waited for her to either invite him to stay and chat, or tell him to go away. Either way, he wasn't leaving. He was an older brother to the girls, and he would always be there for them... even if he was somewhat... not practiced... at expressing his emotions and feelings.
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Post by noss on Jun 18, 2008 9:06:53 GMT -5
"Sy..."
"Sy..."
The distorted voice repeated her words.
She winced and looked at the charm in her hnad. She didn't know why she showed it to him, and probably never would, nor why she said what the voice said to her.
"Maybe it's time to let the chips fall where they may."
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Post by soncascada on Jun 18, 2008 9:13:13 GMT -5
If Syaoran had been a smart ass like someone else they knew, he would've made a remark about that they should eat the chips, not let them fall. However, he didn't.
"Not quite sure what you're getting at by that." Syaoran commented. Was she talking about how people should let things be? Let life take its own course? Or something else?
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Post by noss on Jun 18, 2008 9:17:54 GMT -5
"Every action has a consequence."
"Every action has a consequence."
Noss found herself just repeating the voice, including it's harsh tone. As the voice spoke in Noss' head, she said the words aloud.
"Why worry. Kayla didn't care about the consequences. She did what felt good, and all others be damned. She defined her life by not making it more than it was."
She laughed.
"And once you lose everything, Sy, you're free to do anything."
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Post by soncascada on Jun 18, 2008 9:20:56 GMT -5
Syaoran sighed. "Though that sounds like you Noss, that seems rather melodramatic. So Kay's straight and she got kissed by a guy and liked it. Big deal. There will be others." He looked around. "I don't see you losing everything just yet. You've had a heart break, but that's about it." Though Syaoran was insightful, he didn't seem to notice that Noss was acting any different or guided by any other force.
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Post by noss on Jun 18, 2008 9:26:35 GMT -5
"He's right. From where you stand, Noss, you can't even imagine what the bottom will be like. But this is your life, and it's ending one minute at a time."
Noss and the voice said the next part in unison.
"You have to give up.... you have to realize that you are not a beautiful and unique snowflake. You are the same decaying organic matter as everything else."
"That's freedom. Freedom from expectation, freedom from hope, freedom from fear, freedom from pain. Once you embrace the fact that every minute is a minute closer to death, that a life of mocha lattes and Swedish furniture is no life at all, then you're free. Once you stop worrying about the pain and suffering of others, then you're free."
Noss' eyes had a glazed look. A black Eye of Anubis flickered into being on her forehead and as quickly vanished.
"And the next logical step, the logical progression, is mayhem."
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Post by soncascada on Jun 18, 2008 9:31:22 GMT -5
Syaoran frowned and went closer to Noss with small, slow steps. "Noss... that's the kind of talk that gets people thrown into insane asylums. Stop saying things like that. What's wrong with you?" Syaoran asked.
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Post by noss on Jun 18, 2008 9:37:59 GMT -5
"I can see clearly. I'm free."
She laughed, and the black Eye of Anubis flickered into being again. Now, the contoreted Noss voice came from her mouth, loud and clear.
"I'm free, and I'm in control. I can be when I chose, who I chose. I am free from the torment of lunch dates and bad music. I am free from the torment of heartless women and horny men. I am Noss, evolved. And I, most assuredly, am not ending one minute at a time. We are all part of the same compost heap, my dear friend, and finally, by reaching me, Noss has learned the secret to true survival. True freedom.
She laughed manically.
"Trust me, Syaoran Cascada, the projects and machinations of mayhem are just beginning. And lovely little Noss has a big part to play."
The Eye faded, and as it did, Noss' eyes fell shut. She fell down, from a seated position, into the sand, and shook violently.
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Post by soncascada on Jun 18, 2008 9:42:33 GMT -5
Syaoran's composure had left him and his face was a pale white mask of growing horror.
This was the same description that Trance and Dawn always used to give to him... no... why?!
"Noss!" He watched as she fell, and was at her side as soon as he could be. He dug his cellphone, a black one with red stripes and speed-dialed the number he had for the Takasei's. He didn't know which one would pick up, Lucia, Linnis or Setsuna, but one of them needed to know about this. He didn't know what to do for seizures except make sure the area around Noss was clear of any sharp objects like rocks and let her twitch it out.
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Post by noss on Jun 18, 2008 9:47:37 GMT -5
In fact, like most times these days, there was no answer. Lucia was at Alicia's doing things people their age shouldn't, Setsuna was at work, and Linnis was playing around with the Eye of Tiamat.
Noss' shaking calmed, and she relaxed quite a bit over the next minute or two. In fact, by the time Sy would get the answering machine and make it through the Takasei's annoyingly long message, Noss' eyes were slowly opening. They'd lost that glazed look, but had a tiredness in them, and a confusion.
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Post by soncascada on Jun 18, 2008 12:00:45 GMT -5
"Oh for the love of..." Syaoran closed the phone with a sharp click and looked at Noss. What was he going to do? How was he going to manage...
"Noss... c'mon... Noss..." He was actually fearful for once. Was she going to be okay?
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Post by noss on Jun 18, 2008 12:04:30 GMT -5
She felt woozy, and her head hurt horribly, but she was awake.
"Sy? Wa.... what?"
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Post by soncascada on Jun 18, 2008 12:18:50 GMT -5
Syaoran was reassured by her tone and so his mask went back on, with a little bit of a concerned smile.
"You passed out Noss... you'll be okay." Syaoran said comfortingly.
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Post by noss on Jun 18, 2008 12:21:28 GMT -5
She closed her eyes. Everything about her felt so strange right now.
"My head hurts so bad..."
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Post by soncascada on Jun 18, 2008 12:23:28 GMT -5
"That's understandable, you hit your head on a rock." Syaoran lied smoothly. He wouldn't mention that other presence, not until Noss did. Perhaps it would be better for her to forget about it entirely. He held out his hand.
"C'mon Noss, you should get your head checked at the infirmary." And after that he would go and find Linnis... for the love of God where was that woman when you needed her anyway?
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Post by noss on Jun 18, 2008 12:26:21 GMT -5
"Sy..."
She wasn't sure why she stopped him, but instead of taking his hand and standing up, she put her hand on the side of his face.
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Post by soncascada on Jun 18, 2008 12:28:04 GMT -5
Syaoran felt the touch of his face and he actually for once was startled and blinked.
"Yes Noss?"
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Post by noss on Jun 18, 2008 12:33:36 GMT -5
"I.... Kayla...."
She didn't know what to say, but she was surprised that her lips found Sy's and met them in a sudden and deep kiss.
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Post by soncascada on Jun 18, 2008 12:40:32 GMT -5
His heart was rattling in his chest and his eyes were wide as Noss' lips met his in a deathlock of a kiss. What the hell was this? What was going on? Was her brains completely addled, or was she suddenly coming to the conclusion she was straight and had the hots for him?! Syaoran fell backwards in shock and Noss was on top of him... kissing a guy.
He broke apart (albeit with a bit of effort) and panted, his eyes wide. "Noss what was that? Why... since when am I a girl?" He asked stupidly.
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